but what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
The problem with silly movies all about love... is they make you miss what you don't have, and don't really want. or at least what you tell your self you don't want... because let's be honest, we all want love.
I saw some sappy love movie tonight. It was funny and I laughed. After it I felt totally fine. I was apathetic towards love and just happy to be at the movie with friends. Kevin looked at me, "well, the problem with romance movies is now we all will cry our selves to sleep knowing we will never have that..." ...
wonderful. Just what i wanted to hear.
But then, I thought about it. You know what... I AM NOT DEPRESSED! I feel like I should be or something.. BUT I AM NOT! Life is so much more then crying over who wants me and who doesn't. Life is about me and the Lord. As long as I live my life doing what makes him happy and me happy... well It will all work out in the end. I am not even worried. and I am loving my life. All my moments of being what I am, and being able to discover who I am. Because I am a pretty awesome person, and its sad It has taken me twenty one years to finally believe that.
My name is Janelle.
I suffer from depression. I have since I was 12. This blog is my outlet. My thoughts and ideas on how I handle everyday life. It is not a blog to have people feel sorry for me... actually most people I know don't know about this blog. This is just a place for me to express my thoughts in hopes that I can get better and be the best mom, wife, and friend that I can be.
Many people suffer from depression... maybe someone will read this things and learn something from me.
I am married to the most wonderful man I have ever met. It took me a while to find him, but he is worth everything i went through just to find him.
I am a member of the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I love my religion with all my heart.
I have a beautiful daughter whom I love dearly. She is my world.
I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and his eternal plan. I am so glad that I have this life. I have had many trials and many more are sure to come but God will help me all the way