I never thought that I would be able to let go of my past. Lets be honest, I am not very good at that. I never thought I would be able to let myself care again. Not unless someone from my past came back and told me they had made a mistake. I was certain THAT would be the only way I could "Love again".
I was wrong.
Its an amazing feeling when you fall so fast and so hard that your feet are over your head and your flat on your face in a new place that you never thought could exist.
I never thought this could exist for me.
I know that my life is so richly blessed by the hand of the Lord. I know that I have been given so much lately and it is becuase of God. I know he is helping me. I am so grateful.
I can't imagine my life without Eric. ... No, I can. And its horrible. Its lonely and exactly like it was before I met him, empty. I was searching for so long for someone like him to come along and open my eyes to the beauty that is life. I was waiting for someone to come along and mesh into my life.
And here he is and I am so blessed. My life is not perfect but I am so happy.
Everyone wants to be loved. I never thought it was for me.
I am so glad I was wrong.